Trust in the Lord:

My mind for the last couple weeks have not really been clear. I have thought about what I should write and what I should share and the truth is, there is so much I want to share, but just don't feel like it's the right time.

A part of me is hurting and another part of me is at peace. A month ago today, I posted the below on my social media:

Sometimes things happen in life that are simply not fair. It's so easy to focus on the negative and feel hurt. Trials come and go! They can make you stronger or weaker! You can literally choose to bottle in anger and hatred, or you can choose to love and see the blessings! March 2017 will forever be one I hold in my heart for a long time. The blessings I have received because of the trial I have faced are so worth it. I'm so excited for what's to come! Keep moving forward! Embrace those who come into your life. Stay true to yourself and know that you are worth every bit of happiness! Trials are hard but what you learn is nothing short of a blessing. #moveforward #loveisgood #staypositive #adopted #adoption #adoptionblog #birthmom #adopt #cyh

I try not to focus on the negative and just stay strong and move on, but the truth is, I feel like a part of me is gone. There have been some really awesome blessings that have come my way in the last couple of months and it's so easy to focus on those and be excited about what is to come, but deep down there is hurt. As I mentioned above I'm not ready to share what happened, but I have realized it is ok to have moments. It's ok to sit in the shower and cry. It's ok to hurt. It doesn't matter what has happened to you. What you have gone through, you deserve to go through the normal process of life.

I have always bottled up all my emotions and never felt like I should talk about how I truly feel, having this blog has helped me be able to communicate to myself and others. There are times I write these blogs and have tears stream down my face, because the emotions are so real for me. Thank you to those who read and comment and have reached out. You really don't understand how much I have needed your stories and inspiration in my life.

So many times I think we are nervous to talk about our stories because someone may judge us or we might think it's nobody else's business, but what I have learned is we can help each other heal. It doesn't matter if you're a birth-mom or adopted. It doesn't matter if you are divorced or have gone through something traumatic. My story may help you and your story may help me. Talking about your trials is not a bad thing. The lessons you have learned may be something someone else needs help figuring out.

Thomas S. Monson said " We were not placed on this earth to walk alone!" How true is this!? We need people. We need God. We need each other.

I am truly grateful for the trials I have been through and am facing. I am grateful for the blessing that have come from them. I am beyond thankful that you all have taken time to go through this journey with me. This process has been more than I ever imagined it would be. Life is not fair and things don't always make sense, but we must trust in God that he has a plan. We have to trust that his plan will do nothing more than make us better.

Love all those around you. Embrace their weaknesses and strengths. Show compassion and support. Love yourself and embrace your story.

With so much love,

Chelsea